27-10-24 (originally written between 19th and 20th of October)
Gender, sexuality, and everything in between are tough. Obviously, no one is forcing me to put labels on myself, but it does feel nice to be defined as something more or less concrete.
Here are a few notes I took the other day. Writing it out helps a lot.
Gender
Masc-ish presenting, but that's due to financial and some societal issues
If I were to stay masc forever, I would probably kill myself
I look at pretty women and think "god i wish that was me"
Fem clothing is just soo comfee,,,
I mean, sometimes masc outfits are cool
Fem people in masc clothing are so gender...
Good (???) middle ground I guess
Sexuality
Romanticism
Identified as that for a year, as a "oh i don't want to date you!! (i do :[ )"
Self-esteem/worth issues so yeah
...
Kind of? I do feel more like a girl, and girls are AWESUM
Boys? Haven't met that many to begin with so idk
Refer to point above
Refer to point about self-esteeem
Sometimes (often) I have VERY conflicting thoughts...
Sex seems/sounds cool
Think about the connection